Tyler made his big debut On May 1, 2015. Everything went really smoothly. I will post the birth story later. Today I'm sitting here, nursing this sweet little boy. I just wanted to write down a few of my thoughts.
I had forgotten how hard this really is. The first two days were really smooth and I felt really good. I am so in love with this little boy, but now the sleep deprivation is setting in. I came home from the hospital yesterday afternoon and real life began. I have two other little boys that need their mom. It's a bit overwhelming trying to balance it all. Derek especially is struggling. My milk is starting to come in and my breasts are tender. Despite the smooth delivery, there is still a healing process that must occur. I know that things will get easier, but it's really hard right now.
Because I've been through this two times before, I know that things will get easier and that this will all be worth it. The boys are at church and I am home alone with Tyler. It's been nice to have a little quiet time. I need to remember to take things easy, to cut myself some slack. Nobody expects me to have a perfect house this week or in the weeks to follow. There will be tears , there will be sleepless nights, and there will be plenty of physical pain to deal with. But I can get through this. I need to look for the good each day and remember how much we love this little boy. We worked so hard to get him here. The momentary pain and discomfort will all be worth it because he's part of our eternal family.